So, we are beginning to say farewell to another year. Funny how many thougt that this one would be our last. (silly…) I am sure many of us are making promises to ourselves to keep our New Year resolutions in check. Well, the only resolution I have is to be the best ME, that I can be.
I hasn’t been bubbly panda like I used to be, I miss my bubbly self. I am not going to let the little things overtake me as many times as they have before. I am much too strong to give up, I have come way too far, and have been blessed with everything in my life. My sweet hubby, my amazing family, my super awesome friends, they make me realize that this life is way too short for me to be so down. I have struggled with my depression for a long time. But I will not let it overtake me, the monster that it is. I am better than that. The monster will have to hide under my bed for all I care :3
So for all of you with hopes of a promising new year, I pray that it is all you have ever hoped for.
<3, SaveAnotherMoment (:
Giving up, foreseeing the path ahead.
Fills my heart with an ache, a feeling of dread.
Consuming myself from the inside out,
My inner demons open their mouths, a deafening shout.
Trying to wear a smile, my patience wearing thin.
Losing a battle, I know I will never win.
Truth be told I am a dreamer,
Is this a reality I do not see?
When can I just feel safe with just being me?
Questions unanswered, silent mouths remain.
Stitching the smile onto the pretty face,
Don’t let me frown!
How many people will I eventually let down?
I fall, I stand, & fall again.
This is the pattern I begin.
I have to get out, there has to be a light at the end.
I keep writing these letters, in hope somehow, someway they will send.
Somehow believing that there is something left inside that I can mend.